July 27, 2013

  • A Final Apology to Love that was Only a dream……

    dreams together

    To the dream we once were. Please forgive me for dreaming of love that could never be. How I longed for us to be all the pretty pictures that danced through my imaginations. We were so beautiful together, and I got so lost in all the dreams of what we could have been…… there so deep in my imagination. Even now we are so hard to escape.

    The love and the pain I see and feel in what is left of us, our child. She is all our best, and all our worst tied up in such a beautiful package that it tears my heart and soul in two. I know that for what is left of my life, this dream will always be at the periphery. There is no hope though. It is a dream with no ending….. and , no reality. Still , late on nights such as this I awaken with tears in my eyes, and sorrow for what could have been, if only in my dreams.

    Your spirit will always dance free. There within sight, and just out of reach. I think what holds me is your smile, and your eyes. Some way they fooled me into believing that we really were, when all the while we were not at all. There is no condemnation in this statement, it is only you, and a part of your beauty. You will always be the “Tiny Dancer” I sang of so many times, as I put our daughter to sleep so late in the night.

    Forgive my being lost in the dream even now, if you can. I know I will never escape the hold it has on me. I am happy though for you to be happy, and hope and pray for nothing but the best for you.

    Always, and Forever.

    Christopher Brent